I soaked myself

in your intoxicating fragrance

And buried my face

beneath your perfect bend of neck

Your tangled hair unlocked

spread all over me

Those heavy breath billowed waves

from swollen chest to smoothened curves

I run my fingers to frolic and bite

to giggle and smile

behind those more closed eyes

Lost in wonderous, I feast my sight

Lavished my possession

Is this real or am I dreaming?


In your memory


You will miss me…

You will miss me, I know

because there was more to cherish

than to grief amidst the toll of hatred

You will miss me, I know

because we loved so hard it pained

that your hatred can ever fathom

I was fierce, and I was angry

Anguish need to vent for stained love

stabbed heart grew heavy and tight

whistle blew out of vacuum

You knew the damage was furious

reasons short to mend the broken heart

Harder letting past slip through your kisses

All it takes is you to stay, hold stronger

and stay, leave but stay, forget but stay

I know it wasn’t easy

yet harder is to leave because you miss me

You will miss me, I know, like I do

because leaving was never our option



Still I Love You

Don’t..! Do not come into my dreams

I am old, my heart is weak, my vigor exhausted 

I went farther than you could ever imagine

From where there is no returning, I am tired

Shed those beautiful eyes, it’s killing me

Stab me, kill me, drown me but get out of my head

Do not sneak into my mind in the middle of night

Days are already long

Allow me some rest, return me to life

Your innocent face, those lively smile, 

your smell, touch, feelings, sensation

And those eyes still peer deep into my soul

How is it ever possible 

for a heart to fall for someone so much

A curse or a boon, 

whole world combined couldn’t contain

Insanity beyond cure, reason unfathomable 

Am I dead or alive, more like a walking dead

How could I not know where I am heading

How could you not see that

if that is ever a love…

                                                          still xoxo


An excerpt from a Hindi song I had often hummed

मेरे प्यार की उमर हो इतनी सनम 

तेरे नाम से शुरू, तेरे नाम पे खतम

तेरी खुशी से है, खुशी, तेरे ग़म से है ग़म,  

तेरे नाम  से शुरू, तेरे नाम पे खतम


This much be the life line of my love

May it begin with your name and ends there

In your happiness let it find its joy

And in your sorrow, its pain



Estranged Love

You whispered in those familiar ears, “I Love you”

And pulled me close to bury in your warm bosom 

You cried in those barren chest your emotional outburst

At the mere thought of him stalking and settling here 

You hauled helplessness and truthfulness of your intention

And defended your bearing with half truth and tall tales

I remember how your hands froze at his mere text

Your constant looking over your shoulder in sheer fear

You sought solace in heart you stabbed over and again 

Alas you blame the heart of its sincerity, and its pain

Estranged love, estranged life and few estranged words

estranged peace! 



Joyful pain

The words light up

Chime satiate my dried ears

Reading down the lines

It brings joy unknown 

And pain unsaid 

Yet desire alighted

In forlorn heart

Smile in silence of pain

Joy amidst solitude of world

And pain unsaid 




Promise unfulfilled, road half trod

Love half shared and a void life

Ego at the pinnacle, devour everything

Dwindling sight and a blinded reason

Alas… alas… alas…                                              



Mocking fate


With all the words
What now have become of us
No less is fate a laughing stock
Ridiculed determinations and hopes
Loiter now a complete vagabond

Destiny on its own design
Soar free and independent
Me like a dust beneath its wings
Blew in my insignificance
Without any say before its wind

For once I deluded myself
To reign the fate with my prowess
For what now have become of us
Of all the words and promises
What remain is but fate’s laughter
Echoing through the walls of solitude